John 19-21

As I read John's account of Jesus' crucifixion I noticed something missing in my countenance. There were no tears, no lump in my throat, no sympathetic thirst, no anger, or no sorrow.  As a matter of fact there was no reaction at all. They were simply words on a page retelling a tragic/glorious event from 20 centuries ago. After considering all of that I came to this conclusion; that's not good enough. My reaction to the story, or rather lack of reaction to the story, should be unsettling. I think I need a change in attitude about Jesus' crucifixion.
Stuart